Do you ever feel like a failure? I woke up yesterday morning from a dream in which I was sitting in a school desk and in front of me was a paper with a big ‘F’ on it. It was even circled for extra emphasis! Realizing this was not the best way to begin the day, I began to cry out, in a rather whiny way, to the Lord for help. Instantly, I heard His response in my spirit, “You feel like a failure, but your feeler is wrong. You don’t need to be rescued from these bad feelings, you simply need to stand up and believe and speak the truth about yourself. This is maturity. This is your call to step up and manage what you have been given. To walk in strength you must not listen to lies or those who would advise you who don’t share your goal.” At this point, I had to ask myself, “What is my goal?” I realize my goal might be different from yours. I know we are all at different places in our journeys. For now, my goal is to stand by my husband in training our children to walk in strength and truth. I also want to walk in strength and truth, myself. I want to be ready to move on from laying the foundation stones of salvation, forgiveness, and acceptance. I want to hear His voice and do what I see Him showing me to do – each day. Being human, especially a female human, means having to deal with a body full of crazy hormones that fluctuate wildly from one day to the next. I want to know that truth is still truth on the days when I can’t seem to put down the potato chip bag or my emotions are in a free-fall. Essentially, those are the times when we just have to gut it out, as my husband likes to say. This means thinking and doing what I know is right, regardless of the total lack of warm fuzzy feelings. These are the times when going back to the Word and taking in truth as a life-saving substance is so vital. Yesterday, I found Hebrews 4 and 6 most helpful. I encourage you to read them. I will leave you with a few highlights.
“We who have run for our very lives to God have every reason to grab the promised hope with both hands and never let go. It's an unbreakable spiritual lifeline, reaching past all appearances right to the very presence of God where Jesus, running on ahead of us, has taken up his permanent post as high priest for us…” Hebrews 6:18-20 The Message
“Seeing then that we have a great High Priest who has passed through the heavens, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold fast our confession. For we do not have a High Priest who cannot sympathize with our weaknesses, but was in all points tempted as we are, yet without sin. Let us therefore come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need.” Hebrews 4:14-16 NKJV
Abba, thank You, for your Word and for Your faithfulness. Please keep us faithful to You. In Jesus’ strong and mighty name, Amen.